some kind of ,,matters

why do i feel this way?

how much i feel , i really cant be your friend.. its not good aint bad , but i try to let it pass and i cant stand.its so hard im not meaning i wanna go back , just cant b the only one by that side.its ridiculous how i pretend everything seems to be ok ,either cant write a letter , i mean4 how prd i use to b.

mayb just get deny we cant b together , mayb just time enterteint how bored this get so far, dissconected , unrealeased,a lost highway of pure charmed, how could this jus "happen"?ived tried to make u smile, cuz thats how do i raised up, gettin days by my way , not just living, not just looking foward to seem new , just learning , each little step as i do , each little world i do say, cant b ok;

people change, situations changes , matters comes , thoughts and gossips goes just with some amazing ability around all , like a lil rat goes 4 survive finding chesse like logistical cant respect how the heart feels,.

Its clever b serenity, but clumsy keep quiet as it. nothing , its just ...nothing how this feeling , this named feeling we had once , is just... gone afraids,,? distance,,? ...routine..?

Love is very patient and kind, never jealouse or envious,never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude.Love does not demand its own way.it is not irritable or touchy.It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong.

im some kind of selfish , do protect my own heart with all i have , my fav gun translate r my worlds ,how i talk ho do i speak, "never ever going again , just i said ,, never ever  till..... rigurously i do , i fall , i must shut ,

how does it cames, like apples melted with caramels , how sweet smells , and how dangerously the recipe goes on, caramel will burn somehow if the touch of the bowl is without some globes , .

Not sad , not a bad feeling, mayb hes not feeling that way , thought now ,i show somebody who i cant spell.I entitle my opinions with heavy rocks stucked , cuz i know the truly aint seems , its just reality , headlines cant go under the sea, they just.. wont,

amazing is how strong i am, mayb some kind of he never show, i seat once of those days since we get far away , knowing that there were too many things he made bad,and i did wrong .

im not sure how comunicate , mayb i got bad spell, as always i said , im not trying to-i just dont have to try...

this is all stuff i have hided. now im so atchoo , cant imagine him by my side, how he supouse to b  b4 i had faith in him , when i was locking my feeling with some gold and tight key, and i dont miss now , i mayb missed so much.

tuesd. 4 my final class .

im gonna try it short . but was the worse day ive ever had in my career.im tolerate to gossips i dont care really , tolerate to whatever a teacher can tell me it wont affect me either , just raise my personality , incredible i had experience b4 and im glad they do happened,i awake early in the morning take a cold shower 4 finally let my covers on bed and mayb pin up myface is just a good squezze. well couldnt reverse was shocked , i put my finale test inside the portafolio,by real was a murder feeling that i cant xplained, all i really want there...a hug , just my bf hug.

friends splits up, how do they come to me ? dont know, even i tried to b alone , i needed time 4 myself instead , knowing how i am , might felt that way for around 2 hours or some kind of , didnt wantd smile , didnt wanted to b there..but i stayed there, learned not to b a fugitive just to show matters how the comes.

4 days without seing each other, was eternity times goes slow , i could wait till b togthr again cuz somehow felt conneted, ,, how he said at the way to the beach one night we spend "sleep some ur safe.

i just spended always looking at his eyes , they r the mirrors of "the soul" cant believed,i do slept at his chest like if it was my real pillow .at the matter on fact , what im trying to say is , i felt mad with time, i felt have enought that day , he went... he get there ,, just stayed 4 mins or less.. might never undestood , till today i was rare because of that, .

now going back...4 end with the blog, im happy hes ok ,he just say,, great. as i do too, other peoples mayb not soon , or who knows, might comes ... and each one  will agree be happy with. .but i certanly understand and felt all i said below, love is patient and kind, never boastf.......